1st posting: surgical department

*cant upload my precious pic coz this broadband is sengal

Chief complaint: afraid of coming to surgical posting. The fact that surgeon will cut people open and my anatomy is not that amazing (at this moment) I rather stay at home. Moving from klang to shah alam has drained all my energy throughout the journey. Half day journey had made me think enough that I shouldn’t go home so often.

Day 1 at surgical department is ok. Dato’ hasim show us around and I am so amazed with the smell of the male ward, surgical urology. It smells like urine, the ward is packed with occupied extra bed. Not to mention there’s a lot people with white coat gathering around one bed. Prognosis is not good.

I tried to make myself comfortable in this place so the next day I went to clerk a patient. I think I am hitting a jackpot….this madam is a nicely speaking lady, cannot BO normally, and there’s a pic of her colonoscopy with an abnormal finding. While I was clerking there comes a troop of doctors *man, I towt they’ve done round…what r they doing here.

Actually there’s nothing bad happen, in fact I enjoy being around surgeon which is 100% male (coz the all the female have been transferred to Tanah Merah). After sometime it can be said that male doctors are more relaxed and didn’t throw tantrums *60% from our observation. I’m so blessed that surgeons are welcoming the student to their OT and see how the ACTION happens.

Moral from the posting:

1. Always eat a humble pie. Some afford to use blackberry but they didn’t (wonder with that salary why use a normal Sony Ericsson). Surgeons here really respect the patient & student.
2. They also live religious + easy to talk to and understand students well.
3. Surgeons only scary when they ask question and you didn’t know the answer *actually nothing bad happens
4. 1^st time I heard people in ward said “u shud grab an early lunch” ~ coz surgery will take lots of your time

Even though I have long way to go + my anatomy is suxx…..i got a feeling, I wanna be a surgeon. I was thinking about a scene:

The desperate housewives scene

Husband: why must u become a surgeon? I hardly see you.

Me: why don’t u come earlier and decide what shud I be.

The muslim family scene

Husband: I think surgeon is a noble job.

Me: Thank you for understanding, dear.

Anyway, i've draw a line here:

Student =learn + not paid + not reponsible to the patient

Staff= work + paid + dont screw up

Hitler yang agung....my fuhrer

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Mengapa Adolf Hitler
Penghormatanku kepada lelaki agung, Adolf Hitler. Semoga akan bangkit seorang lagi sepertinya di zaman ini.

Aku berbual dengan seorang ahli keluarga rakan yang sedang menamatkan tesis Ph.Dnya dan aku amat terperanjat apabila beliau menyatakan tesis beliau berkaitan Adolf Hitler, pemimpin Nazi. Maka aku katakan padanya, "Takkan dah habis semua tokoh Islam di dunia ini sampai kamu memilih si bahlol ini dijadikan tajuk?"

Beliau ketawa lalu bertanya apa yang aku ketahui tentang Hitler. Lalu aku menjawab bahawa Hitler itu seorang pembunuh yang membunuh secara berleluasa dan meletakkan German mengatasi segala-galanya...lalu dia bertanya dari mana sumber aku.

Aku menjawab sumberku dari TV dan suratkhabar. Lalu dia berkata : " Baiklah, pihak British telah melakukan lebih dahsyat dari itu...pihak Jepun semasa zaman Emperor mereka juga sama...tapi kenapa dunia hanya menghukum Hitler dan meletakkan kesalahan malahan memburukkan nama Nazi seolah-olah Nazi masih wujud hari ini sedangkan mereka melupakan kesalahan pihak British kepada Scotland, pihak Jepun kepada dunia dan pihak Afrika Selatan kepada kaum kulit hitam mereka?" Aku lantas meminta jawapan dari beliau.

Beliau menyambung : Ada (2) dua sebab.
1. Prinsip Hitler berkaitan Yahudi, Zionisme dan penubuhan negara Israel.
Hitler telah melancarkan Holocaust untuk menghapuskan Yahudi kerana beranggapan Yahudi akan menjahanamkan dunia pada suatu hari nanti.

2. Prinsip Hitler berkaitan dengan Islam.
Hitler telah belajar sejarah kerajaan terdahulu dan umat yang lampau, dan beliau telah menyatakan bahawa ada tiga tamadun yang terkuat, iaitu Parsi, Rome dan Arab.

Ketiga-tiga tamadun ini telah menguasai dunia satu ketika dulu dan Parsi serta Rome telah mengembangkan tamadun mereka hingga hari ini, manakala Arab pula lebih kepada persengketaan sesama mereka sahaja. Beliau melihat ini sebagai satu masalah kerana Arab akan merosakkan Tamadun Islam yang beliau telah lihat begitu hebat satu ketika dulu.

Atas rasa kagum beliau pada Tamadun Islam, beliau telah mencetak risalah berkaitan Islam dan diedarkan kepada tentera Nazi semasa perang, walaupun kepada tentera yang bukan Islam.

Beliau juga telah meberi peluang kepada tentera German yang beragama Islam untuk menunaikan solat ketika masuk waktu di mana jua...bahkan tentera German pernah bersolat di dataran Berlin.

Ketika disatu upacara, Hitler ketika itu menunggu sehingga mereka tamat solat jemaah sebelum memulakan ucapan beliau. Hitler juga sering bertemu dengan para Ulamak dan meminta pendapat mereka serta belajar dari mereka tentang agama dan kisah para sahabat dalam mentadbir.

Beliau juga meminta para Sheikh untuk mendampingi tentera2nya yang beragama islam, bagi mendoakan mereka malah juga turut meminta keselamatan buat tenteranya yang bukan Islam serta tiupan semangat kepada yang beragama Islam untuk membunuh Yahudi.

Semua maklumat ini ialah hasil kajian sejarah yang dilakukan oleh sahabatku untuk tesis Ph.Dnya dan beliau meminta aku tidak menokok tambah apa-apa supaya tidak menyusahkan beliau untuk membentangkannya nanti. Beliau tidak mahu aku campurkan bahan dari internet kerana aku bukan pakar bidang sejarah.

Tetapi gambar-gambar yang ada di sini sudah lama tersebar dan semua orang boleh melihatnya di internet. Aku juga sedaya upaya mencari maklumat tambahan di internet dan berjumpa beberapa perkara diantaranya:

1: Pengaruh Al-Quran di dalam ucapan Hitler.

Ketika tentera Nazi tiba di Moscow, Hitler berhajat menyampaikan ucapan. Dia memerintahkan penasihat-penasihatnya untuk mencari kata-kata pembukaan yang hebat tak kira dari kitab agama apa, kata-kata ahli falsafah ataupun dari bait syair.

Seorang sasterawan Iraq yang bermastautin di German mencadangkan ayat Al-Quran : (اقتربت الساعة وانشق القمر) bermaksud : Telah hampir Hari Kiamat dan bulan akan terbelah... Hitler berasa kagum dengan ayat ini dan menggunakannya sebagai kalam pembukaan dan isi kandungan ucapan beliau.

Memang para ahli tafsir menghuraikan bahawa ayat tersebut bermaksud kehebatan, kekuatan dan memberi maksud yang mendalam. Perkara ini dinyatakan oleh Hitler di dalam buku beliau Mein Kampf yang ditulis di dalam penjara bahawa banyak aspek tindakan beliau berdasarkan ayat Al-Quran, khususnya yang berkaitan tindakan beliau ke atas Yahudi.

2. Hitler bersumpah dengan nama Allah yang Maha Besar.

Hitler telah memasukkan sumpah dengan nama Allah yang Maha Besar di dalam ikrar ketua tenteranya yang akan tamat belajar di akademi tentera German. " Aku bersumpah dengan nama Allah (Tuhan) yang Maha Besar dan ini ialah sumpah suci ku,bahawa aku akan mentaati semua perintah ketua tentera German dan pemimpinnya Adolf Hitler, pemimpin bersenjata tertinggi, bahawa aku akan sentiasa bersedia untuk berkorban dengan nyawaku pada bila-bila waktu demi pemimpin ku"

3. Hitler enggan meminum (arak) pada ketika beliau gementar semasa keadaan German yang agak goyah dan bermasalah. Ketika itu para doktor mencadangkan beliau minum arak sebagai ubat dan beliau enggan, sambil mangatakan,

" Bagaimana anda ingin suruh seseorang itu minum arak untuk tujuan perubatan sedangkan beliau tidak pernah seumur hidupnya menyentuh arak?"

Ya, Hitler tidak pernah menjamah arak sepanjang hayat beliau. Minuman kebiasaan beliau ialah teh menggunakan uncang khas.

Bukanlah tujuan penulisan ini untuk membela apa yang dilakukan oleh Hitler, tetapi ianya bertujuan untuk menyingkap apa yang disembunyikan oleh pihak Barat. Semoga kita semua beroleh manfaat. Hitler sepatutnya mampu menghapuskan semua Yahudi dahulu tapi dia tinggalkan sedikit saki baki bangsa itu agar manusia masa hadapan tahu akan keburukan orang Zionis ni !

Terbitan dari sumbangan email Hj. Anuar Hashim (Ketua Pegawai Operasi EBEL) disunting semula untuk paparan di albanjari online dan EBEL News.

bye bye klang....hello KB

Seriously susahnya nak meninggalkan rumah setelah 4 tahun duduk sebumbung dengan famili. Kadang2 saya berharap agar klinikal dijalankan di HTAR je *tp overburdened lak hospital tu. So saya akan bermula dari kosong....mengemas tempat baru, mencari clique baru dan belajar perkara2 baru.

Selepas ini saya akan mula merindui rumah...katil....dan segala2nya tentang keluarga. Let us pray that i wont encountered with annoying housemate or roomate. After spending years at my own home I had a feeling that I don't accept inappropriate behavior anymore. It can turn me into monster.

Anyway my housewife mindset has totally off. Not in the mood for cooking or patting clay mask on my face. Now i'd really want to dedicate myself to clinical training and start being practical.
Got a bus to catch tomorrow morning. ta-ta

all by myself

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long live the emperor

Longevity is one of my favorite topic. Since i got into medical school i just can't drop it....counting my milestone (compared to others at my age..ehm2..) i'd really need to live longer and healthier so that my life mission would be accomplished. Maybe i need some Benjamin Buttons gene so that i'm getting younger everyday (yeah great...people you loved will die before you & you'll end up being LONELY~)

The emperor of China ate Cordyceps sinensis regularly to achieve longevity. Don't be surprised if i got that in my house too but that was not prescribed for me. (^_^) It's not literally keep you alive but cordyceps are known to boost immune system, preserve a good lung function and indirectly helps for a better renal function. My mom didn't catch a cold or fever after a year taking it regularly (thank you Allah, alhamdulillah)

Jeong Jaewon (JJ)
I've found out about a man who lived in this era, which considered long lived+ healthy. He is the oldest CEO in Korea, still working in his 94's. Once the youngest paediatrician in Korea and run his own food company called Jeong's Food group.

So know i'm sharing a longevity tips that worth your life.
1. Study every morning/day to keeps your brain working and prevent dementia. JJ: watch CNN everyday to stimulate language centre
2. Raise crop by himself, it must be organic + of course he has a large lawn.
3. Exercise everyday. Always do stretching and he walks every morning in his 1/2 acre garden.
4. Special normal diet but in SMALL amount. Wanna know what JJ had for breakfast? boiled potato, boiled egg, ginkgo nuts, boiled pumpkin, fresh salad, fruits, rice cake +soy milk. He said, do not eat rice in the morning.

After many years doing this, JJ who'd diagnosed with diabetes in his 40's able to maintain near to normal blood sugar level. His hair considered as a hair of 40 year old. I wonder how is he doing during his housemen years.

finding happyness in nation

If someone ask me why u wanna be a doctor? i would say because i love people more than i love cats or machine. One of my specialty is watching people live their life. Either watching a documentary...read a book or literally observe (what people do when they eat, when they scold children, when they sneeze)~ i'd really enjoy it. Later I would make some self-realization, at least this is the whole point of doing it.

While our economy is going down, i've just finished reading a book called 'Pelangi Persia' by Dina Sulaiman. Seeing how Iranian live from a perspective of Indonesian makes me realize that we've heard too much crap from the west. Iran is nothing than what i had imagine before. If our government is looking for a role model...please choose Iran as example so that malaysian public will have access to cheap electricity, free water in the public places and lots of picnic spot. Plus, Iranian were so nice to God and guest. (pls remember i'm pissed off with the new electricity tariff...from rm200/month to rm400 this month)

Pls answer the following question:
Its good to have following nationalty.
A. malaysia
B. iran
C. denmark
D. dubai

Iran
-religious and have respect to others, regardless what color/religion they are. still can be happy in iran if u are zoroaster, sunni, christian...armenian. a good command in persian language is always an advantage
-lots of 'genius nuts' *iran is the largest pistachio exporter in the world
-they are free from commercialism or pop culture like us, they believe in their own movie & ideology. the president is really a humble man
-older woman can go to college, martyr's family got all the help they need, there's no orphan in Teheran coz all of them at least have been adopted by rich family even though they didn't live together

I watched Oprah and Astro Awani, then i come up with this comparison.
Denmark
-being said as the happiest nation in the world but have least faith, actually they trust humanity
-people opt for family, happiness, academic, creativity.
-by 4 or 5pm parents will go home/market, be with their kids. I wonder how a doctor's life there
-few respondent have been staying in US said they would never raise a child in US environment
-the higher your income...the higher your income tax would be
-success measured by happiness, not about social class or your earnings
-you can stay as a student in university as long as you want coz education is free, if you're jobless government will still feed you
-the margin between social classes are small, why? coz they're corruption free or maybe minimal

Dubai
-only 10% locals, the rest are foreigners
-architecture: superb as much as iran N denmark.
-of course not all of them are rich...some are struggling to live everyday BUT
-electricity, water and healthcare are FREE *Dr. Lamees Hamdan even wonder why America didn't provide free health care for the people
-no homeless people
-NO INCOME TAX (awesome!!)
-live next door to mother-in-law are common, not all mother-in-law are like Marie *Everybody Loves Raymond. Live next door to mother-in-law with central kitchen and chef enables you to have 3 meals sent to your house everyday~ lucky you doc

Malaysia
-ala.....you can think by yourself.

And so, my fellow Americans, ask not what your country can do for you; ask what you can do for your country. John F. Kennedy 

The whole point of this entry is i'm looking for happyness~ There is no perfect land but I think we just have to overcome our limitation. To some extent i dont agree with JFK.
  

 

we made choices

Orientasi mbbs baru sahaja selesai. Sepanjang minggu ini saya sering terkenang teman2 yang masih tinggal dan teman2 yang telah pergi. Pergi tidak semestinya kerana rela, namun ada yang memilih untuk pergi. Dalam dunia yang serba komersil; kita akan dihakimi  kerana setiap pilihan pasti membezakan seseorang. Saya memilih dan berusaha untuk kekal di sini agar mencapai satu turning point dalam hidup.

Baru2 ini saya ke pasaraya di kejiranan berdekatan. Takdir menemukan saya dengan rakan sekelas semasa tahun 6. Mengimbau kenangan tahun 1997 yang belum pudar, saya masih ingat rakan yang selalu tidak menyudahkan kerja rumah dan berterusan gagal dalam beberapa subjek. Saya sempat menegur beliau yang bertugas sebagai juruwang. Sesekali rasa sedih/kasihan dalam hati kerana saya sedar beliau menghadapi masalah pembelajaran *mungkin some degree of learning disability. Membayangkan saya ditempatnya adalah satu turning point. Saya mesti bersyukur walaupun saya belum menjadi pelajar terbaik dalam kelas, masih berhutang dengan ptptn, masih belum bertemu jodoh dan masih belum beres dari banyak segi.

Bagi menghadapi hari mendatang saya akan berterusan mencuba:

-makan dengan seimbang kerana saya tahu tidur yang cukup bukanlah satu pilihan yang mampu saya buat.

-menjadi manusia yang tidak mendatangkan masalah+ menyenangkan

-beradaptasi dengan persekitaran baru n have fun

-mengawal emosi apabila keadaan tidak menyenangkan